Lost in Love

Someone said "take it easy" as they left the bookstore today. I'll admit I wanted to burst into tears. I definitely teared up and had to take a minute to calm down (I'm already an emotional person and college isn't helping LOL(it's also in my genes hahaha mom)). I haven't heard that phrase in almost 8 months. My Pepe always said that every time we left, that was his "goodbye". I knew it would be one of the things I would remember about him when I started thinking that he would be really sick soon. 8 months. It feels like yesterday but it hasn't been that long. 8 months of going to your house and waiting for you to show up just like you had run to the store or taken the dog for a walk or had come out of the computer room. I'll admit that for a while I pretended that that's where you had gone. 8 months of seeing huge candy bars and wishing I was sharing one with you. 8 months of wishing I could bake you something again. A couple m...

A few people have asked me recently why I haven't been blogging. Well the truth is I've been trying, since at least March, but I just haven't made it yet. I think constantly of new topics to share but constantly feel inadequate in my experience, words, or guidance to share with those younger (or older than me) my thoughts on certain topics. The Lord's been showing me recently that I need to let him be my joy. I need to be filled with his love for his people and be his vessel in showing joy and love and kindness and compassion. I need to not be so focused on my inadequacy and focus more on how perfect my maker is. So, today I will not feel inadequate. Today I will show his love and kindness and joy and compassion and peace and patience through my broken life. Today I will not question my maker. Lord, let me be your vessel.  Romans 9:19-23  19 You will say to me then, “Why does he still find fault? For who can resist his will?”  20 But who are you, O man, to answe...

This past week, December 26- January 2, I had the chance to go to Arizona. I love the Navajo people and I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to go! We loaded the bus early Saturday morning, and after going through river flooding warnings, flash flood warnings, tornado warnings and watches, we finally arrived at our hotel in Amarillo, TX and were--at last--under a blizzard warning. I will admit that I really did not think it was going to snow that night, because we were in Texas (!!!) BUT GOD, yes, his plans are always better than ours!! We were snowed in that night and the next morning we were able to have a church service together in our hotel's meeting room. I-40 finally opened and we were able to head to Arizona Tuesday morning. Upon arriving, we ate dinner and we were off to bed! Wednesday we worked to organize food, toys, and clothing, then to place them back on to trailers and U-Haul's. After spending the morning organizing at Chinle, we were able to accept the rus...

okay before you say anything, 1) yes I am in a relationship, and have been in the same one for a while. And 2) it used to drive me nuts when my mom would say this while I am still dating someone, but she has a point. Now lets move on to what I mean by teen dating. You will either fall into one of two categories. On one extreme you have worldly teen dating (WTD) and then you have purposeful dating (PD). WTD is what you see on TV and social media. It's the "what can I get from you/ what will you give me" mindset. These relationships are the "happy 1 week I love you so much bae". *gag me with a spoon*. I can say that these relationships are often meaningless and leave you heartbroken. I do not know from experience, but I see it way too often. This type of relationship that is formed is really a hazard, something that as Christian's, and just as people,we should flee from. Proverbs 4:23 tells us to guard our hearts. It really is true that what you put into y...

For my bible class we are going through the book titled "A Young Woman's Guide to Making Right Choices". I have to admit that some chapters or examples can be a little cheesy, but over all it is a good study and has sparked good conversations in class. Last week we discussed modesty and how it means different things to different people. I have been thinking about that a lot. Maybe modesty isn't necessarily how you physically dress. Maybe modesty is clothing yourself in faithfulness, gentleness, kindness, love, joy, peace, and patience. Or maybe it means to clothe yourself in the armor of God so you are always physically ready to fight the spiritual battles we do or don't face daily. Maybe modesty is mentally dressing yourself in ways that are not prideful or attention seeking.  Whatever your definition of modesty is, I think it also goes hand in hand with this week's chapter on gluttony. By definition, eating (v.) means to consume food for either nutritiona...

I love Psalms. I have never read it all the way through, so that is something I am working on right now, verse by verse. In my bible, the 'title' of chapter 4 is "Answer Me When I Call". The whole chapter expresses quiet trust amid troubling circumstances.  Quiet trust amid troubling circumstances.  Notice the word quiet. There is a reason that 'quiet trust' was used instead of 'trust'. Think about what trusting God entails. If I trust him, chances are I will not be worried, or should not be anyway. If I truly trust God, I will be quiet because I know he will handle it. Our God hears, and not only hears, but listens. You are worth more than the sparrows. (Matthew 10:31)  He knows the number of hairs on your head. (Matthew 10:30) He knows when you lie down and when you rise. (Psalms 139:2)  Surely God of the universe knows your worries. He is handling it. Have a quiet trust. You have to place your problems at the foot of the cross and let it be.  ...

A few weeks ago I had the chance to attend a week long leadership camp also known as Super Summer!! I have my pictures from this week here -  ms super summer on vsco . {you can listen to the following link while reading, if you would like} Lauren Daigle// My Revival I am so very thankful I was able to spend a week surrounded by people who love the Lord & long to serve him. I was apart of Brown 1 and I had the sweetest small group and leader!  One of our last sessions was on missional living. It was probably my favorite session. We talked a lot about what our platform is. So I'm going to ask you, What is your platform? What platform has the Lord placed you on this season? Maybe you are a son, daughter, brother, sister, mother, father, student, employee, employer, teacher, friend, husband or wife. Chances are you have more than one. Whatever and where ever the Lord has placed you, you are there for a reason. Your reason is also a calling and command from...