Lost in Love

Someone said "take it easy" as they left the bookstore today. I'll admit I wanted to burst into tears. I definitely teared up and had to take a minute to calm down (I'm already an emotional person and college isn't helping LOL(it's also in my genes hahaha mom)). I haven't heard that phrase in almost 8 months. My Pepe always said that every time we left, that was his "goodbye". I knew it would be one of the things I would remember about him when I started thinking that he would be really sick soon. 8 months. It feels like yesterday but it hasn't been that long. 8 months of going to your house and waiting for you to show up just like you had run to the store or taken the dog for a walk or had come out of the computer room. I'll admit that for a while I pretended that that's where you had gone. 8 months of seeing huge candy bars and wishing I was sharing one with you. 8 months of wishing I could bake you something again. A couple m...

A few people have asked me recently why I haven't been blogging. Well the truth is I've been trying, since at least March, but I just haven't made it yet. I think constantly of new topics to share but constantly feel inadequate in my experience, words, or guidance to share with those younger (or older than me) my thoughts on certain topics. The Lord's been showing me recently that I need to let him be my joy. I need to be filled with his love for his people and be his vessel in showing joy and love and kindness and compassion. I need to not be so focused on my inadequacy and focus more on how perfect my maker is. So, today I will not feel inadequate. Today I will show his love and kindness and joy and compassion and peace and patience through my broken life. Today I will not question my maker. Lord, let me be your vessel.  Romans 9:19-23  19 You will say to me then, “Why does he still find fault? For who can resist his will?”  20 But who are you, O man, to answe...

This past week, December 26- January 2, I had the chance to go to Arizona. I love the Navajo people and I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to go! We loaded the bus early Saturday morning, and after going through river flooding warnings, flash flood warnings, tornado warnings and watches, we finally arrived at our hotel in Amarillo, TX and were--at last--under a blizzard warning. I will admit that I really did not think it was going to snow that night, because we were in Texas (!!!) BUT GOD, yes, his plans are always better than ours!! We were snowed in that night and the next morning we were able to have a church service together in our hotel's meeting room. I-40 finally opened and we were able to head to Arizona Tuesday morning. Upon arriving, we ate dinner and we were off to bed! Wednesday we worked to organize food, toys, and clothing, then to place them back on to trailers and U-Haul's. After spending the morning organizing at Chinle, we were able to accept the rus...